Category Archives: Weight Gain

My last post (other than Oops.) seems like it was written in a different decade. In a way, it was. After getting back from vacation, I was up a decade in weight from where I was last time I checked. Up ~10 pounds and up into a higher decade (the 160s). Of course, two days later I had pissed out 6 of those pounds, so I really only gained about 4. Two and a half days in NYC, plus a wedding in LA, called for a lot of eating but even more drinking.

Was it worth it? Totally. Just like my Accidentally Good Eating week, I felt good about my choices, never felt guilty or sick about what I ate, but you win some weeks and you lose some weeks. That said, I’m beginning to sound like a broken record, and for that, I apologize. Tomorrow is Monday, and the 1st of the month, which automatically feels like a perfect fresh start. Let’s just hope I’m not April Fooling myself. HA HA HA.

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The view from the terrace of my hotel room

An old fashioned from The National

An old fashioned from The National

Throwdown Waffle (with Cookie Butter!)

Throwdown Waffle (with Cookie Butter!)

A Walk in the Park

A Walk in the Park

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Cold in Central Park

HOME! I missed these guys.

HOME! I missed these guys.


As I mentioned in my last entry, I had a pretty major dental procedure done on Monday morning. Years ago I had a root canal on my upper left molar, and my dentist at the time placed a bridge in that spot. Long story short, the bridge fell out, an infection happened, and a $3,700 dental bill was born.

The dentist extracted the teeth, scraped out the remaining bone and infection, implanted a bone graft, then stitched it back up. It will take several months to heal completely before they can then go in and drill into the bone to install posts for implants. And then several months for that to heal before they can put the actual teeth in. All I gotta say is thank goodness for dental insurance (which only covered half) and the missing teeth being in the upper rear section of my mouth.

I don’t know if I’m just a really fast healer, or one tough son of a bitch, but I was back to work the next day and felt only minimal discomfort. Just like after my gallbladder surgery, I felt a lot less pain than I was warned I would feel. I had my pain meds but I mostly only took them before bed to help me sleep. Having stitches in my mouth and feeling them slowly fall out is certainly gross, but even when I’d chew softly on that side, or run my toothbrush over it, it wasn’t bad at all.

That said, my diet for the week was 90% mashed potatoes and various soups. And frozen yogurt. Weigh-day is Saturday, but out of curiosity I got on the scale Friday morning and saw a number 2.6 pounds higher than the last. Including my regular birth control pill, I was on five different types of medication, so perhaps that’s part of what’s sending my body into a frenzy. Oh yeah and not working out a lick again the whole week. Some way, somehow I’m still making it to my weekly spin class, albeit only once per week.

Surprisingly, official weigh-day stat was not so bad:

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So there’s that. A small amount of pain from my surgery, a small amount of gain from my surgery, and a small amount of loss (two teeth, and maybe a little pride) from my surgery. In case you missed all that. I’m still not worried about my stagnant weight, but it is starting to annoy me. Of course I know why it’s all happening; it’s not one of those “OMG WHY CAN’T I LOSE WEIGHT” situations at all. Not even a little bit. The plan is to try that Shakeology cleanse on Monday. I’ll be sure to let you know how it goes.


Anyone who manages to stay on plan during a busy holiday season has my ultimate respect. However, if discipline comes at a price, like being miserable and salivating over baked goods from afar, then I don’t know if it’s worth it. Like I said back on Thanksgiving, this is real life. And while food shouldn’t rule your life, it shouldn’t…err, rule your life either? What? You know what I mean damn it. Didn’t really think that sentence through but whatever.

Photo Dec 26, 8 37 48 AM Yesterday, I had an epiphany. My mom gave me this big thing of juice, but it’s not juice. It’s 50 egg whites. Where did all the yolks go? They went into five egg pies; a Filipino dessert similar to dim sum egg tarts. One pie was reserved just for me, because she knows how much I love egg pie. Growing up I’d easily finish a whole pie myself (not in one sitting, come on!). The ingredients list mattered very little to me, but going over them in my head before cutting into it made me realize how I got to be 280+ pounds: 1 pie crust, 1 can of sweetened condensed milk, 1 can of evaporated milk, and 10 egg yolks.

This is my favorite pie, people. But the thought of eating it now made me sick to my stomach. As much as I hate wasting food, and as much as I love egg pie, I tossed it in the garbage (sorry mommy).

In other news…my Christmas was absolutely fabulous. My mom’s side of the family all live in LA, so our tradition is to get together on Christmas eve, have dinner, play games, and open presents at midnight. I have 9 other cousins around my age, plus two teenage nephews and a niece about to turn 20, so we always have a good time while the parents watch and laugh at our craziness from afar. Christmas with my family is not a success unless you wake up with a splitting headache and a missing voice. We’re loud.

Among this year’s Christmas gift haul was the expensive ass lip balm I use, cash money, and a Nike Fuel Band. It’s so cute how supportive my family is of me. I can’t tell you how proud I am of my brother who has been soda free for months and has lost 20ish pounds so far. All my nagging is finally paying off! My mom has been losing weight too, and is now bugging me for all my old clothes. Even the slutty ones. My dad, who has never really been overweight, but eats quite unhealthily, has cut down on the soda as well. Now to get him to stop dumping sugar and cream in his coffee.

For stocking stuffer giveaways, I made a huge batch of hot cocoa mix using this recipe:

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Then stole five other random packaging ideas from Pinterest:

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But not before getting pretty distracted drawing other things on marshmallows:

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And eventually finishing 12 jars of hot cocoa cuteness:

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So what kind of damage did I do? Not sure really. I did get on the scale this morning, but fully clothed with about four layers on, plus boots, after eating breakfast, and while on my period. The result was a number about 8 pounds higher than my lowest recorded weight back in late October. This is after two months of barely working out, barely tracking anything I ate, and two (okay, more like a dozen) big holiday indulgences.

Am I disappointed in myself? A year ago you would have had to talk me off the ledge if I not only DIDN’T lose weight in two months, but GAINED weight. But today !? As much as I wanted to break into the 130s before 2012 ended, I’m alright. It’s just a number on the scale. My jeans still fit fine. It is no mystery to me why I’m up, and I haven’t forgotten my methods to get back down. Don’t get me wrong; I’m not patting myself on the back. But I’m not gonna beat myself up about it either.

My company was kind enough to give us this week plus half of next week off, and I’m excited to get back into a workout routine. My sister let me borrow seasons 1 and 2 of The Big Bang Theory, so I’ll be watching that in the Dojo while hoofing it on the treadmill for a bit. Breakfast was a sensible whole wheat english muffin with light strawberry preserves, a cup of blackberries, and scrambled egg whites. My growling stomach is telling me it’s time for second breakfast, so I must go.

Have a good week!

Love, Mae & Santa Bowie

Love, Mae & Santa Bowie


For several days prior to my work trip, I was slightly very panicked about how being away from home would affect my daily routine. You see, underneath this cool, calm exterior (ha!), I’m an overplanner and preemptive panicker. Would I have time to work out? How would I prepare my usual meals without a refrigerator, microwave, or toaster? Is the hotel within walking distance of any vegan, or even healthyish restaurants? Does the hotel restaurant have any nutritious options available?

The answers to my questions were: technically yes but I was too tired to do so, I couldn’t unless I wanted to eat peanut butter sandwiches every day, no, and yes. Before I left, I did plan and take advantage of being home as much as possible by getting a lot of exercise in and packing travel-friendly foods like bananas, apples, Larabars, a loaf of bread, and a jar of no-fridge-needed peanut butter. I also checked out the hotel restaurant’s menu and found that they had a decent selection of veganish offerings like steel cut oats, grilled vegetable platters, veggie wraps, and veggie pasta.

But the healthy eating lasted about 6 hours into the first 18 hour day before I drop kicked the plan out of the window of a tall building. I won’t bore you with the details, but I was certainly NOT counting points or calories, nor was I being even slightly veganish. Eggs, butter, cheese, bacon, and turkey were consumed. And ice cream. There goes my streak! I’m not giving it up though; I’m back to being animal-free today.

So what was the damage? I didn’t have access to a scale for my usual Saturday morning naked weigh-in, but when I got home last night and weighed myself the number was scary bad. It was late and I had eaten a bunch; I knew it wasn’t real, so I’m counting this morning’s weight. Four days of double my calories/points and zero exercise:

Weight Difference Total Loss
Week 76 152.8 +4.6 130.5lbs

And back to the 150s I go! I kinda want to blame it on PMS, but considering how much I stuffed my face it should’ve been worse. This test was absolutely, positively, a failure on paper. But that doesn’t necessarily mean that I’m feeling pathetic and down on myself either. Per my week 74 post, at this work conference, I saw hundreds of colleagues for the first time in over two years. I knew that they’d be surprised, but I didn’t think that people would flat out not recognize me at all. Most of them I’ve known for over a decade! Either they’d give me a tentative hug while desperately trying to place me, or sneak a glance at my name tag before realizing it was their old pal Mae.

This is how they remember me, in 2010 (not even at my heaviest):

And this is 2012. Please excuse my haggard appearance. I think this was hour 13 of day 1.

If you’ve never heard of my company, we are a children’s play and fitness corporation (mommy & me, childhood development and socialization, early gymnastics, sports training, etc). The majority of our staff and franchise owners have a fitness background and are generally just healthy and active people. I’m the geeky, technical, artistic, and behind-the-scenes person, so my appearance doesn’t necessarily matter, but I definitely feel like I can represent the company much more appropriately with my new lifestyle. Not that my coworkers (extended family, really) didn’t care about me or love me just as much 130 pounds ago, but I know that they are proud of me and all of the positive changes I have made for myself these past 17 months.

Whenever someone would come up to me and ask me how I did it, I proudly answered, “the old-fashioned way: regular exercise and healthy eating with the help of Weight Watchers.” Some of them actually said they were relieved to learn that I did it the natural way, rather than going the surgery route (not judging, honest!), via an eating disorder or other fad diet. One franchisee even told me that she follows my blog (HI THERE!) and is in the middle of Couch 2 5K right now! That was so awesome to hear. What we do here in the healthy living blogging world can be contagious, in a good way, and that is one of the big reasons I ramble on and on for you all.

Now it’s back to reality, for a short while anyway, and I’m so glad to be home to my own kitchen, dojo, bed, and Bowie. There are two more travel tests coming up, both to New York, and if I can just ace one of them I think I’ll be in good shape. Just four days until I fly out there for my photo shoot! They sent me a LONG checklist of stuff to prepare, and now that seminar is behind me I can get excited about it. And plan the hell out of it.

I leave you with this gorgeous photo of the view from my hotel room. I love Los Angeles.


As in, “upsies! I went up [in weight] this week.”

Weight Difference Total Loss
Week 74 150.4 +0.6 132.9lbs

Really and truly, I’m not concerned or upset at all. In fact I am surprised I didn’t gain more. Last weekend I had a garage sale on both Saturday and Sunday morning which was surprisingly incredibly draining considering I basically sat and/or stood around in the garage not doing much. Both were scheduled workout days, but I just didn’t have any energy and pretty much stayed in bed the rest of each day.

Then Monday rolled around, and I was all suited up to start on week 4 of Ease Into 10K (Couch to 5K’s estranged older cousin) and a round of Les Mills Pump. Those plans were scratched the moment I got confirmation of another, way more interesting activity, for later in the evening. I can’t even remember what my excuse was on Tuesday, and finally on Wednesday I pre-planned being a lazy bum for the rest of the week. Running around the office during a crazy busy work week would serve as my exercise. My only regret was not taking advantage of working out during this fabulous fall weather we had this past week in LA. Next week it’s back to upper 90s and near heatstroke.

Eleven days from today is my company’s bi-annual International corporate seminar. Having been with the company for going on twelve years, this isn’t my first rodeo. Despite the long hours, the running around, the nagging feeling you’re forgetting something really important, and having to be away from home, I honestly enjoy it. My all day every day is the office, so the change of scenery is nice.

What I don’t like, and have never liked, is that we have to wear our company polo shirts during the whole thing. I hate polo shirts for several reasons. 1) They never fit me properly. Even in feminine cuts, the waist part is either too baggy or too tight, and the sleeves cut off my circulation. Don’t get me started on the constricting and oddly placed collar buttons. 2) I want to wear my own cute clothes! In a polo, there is absolutely no getting around 3) looking like a Target or Best Buy employee. And 4) you don’t know how embarrassing it was having to get fitted for ladies’ XXL or men’s L/XL shirts.

But it’s been two years, and 134 pounds since the last seminar. I am now wearing a size small. Also? Supposedly this brand runs small, and it’s not even skin tight on me. One of the worst parts of me – my batwings – have freedom of movement and don’t feel suffocated by the sleeves. Yeah, bitch! Polo shirts!

Don’t get me wrong, I still don’t like polos or that I have to wear a uniform for three days, but at least at a smaller size, I have more options to attempt to look cute. This is another scenario where I so wish I had pictures of me stuffed into a size XL+ polo shirt sausage casing for reference. (I can’t stress this enough: TAKE LOTS OF BEFORE/PROGRESS PICS, FOLKS!)

In eleven days, I will also be seeing hundreds of people I’ve known over a decade for the first time in more than two years. My coworkers are laughing at me, knowing how much attention I’ll be receiving, and knowing how uncomfortable that shit makes me. Of course it is positive attention, and it’s certainly better than negative attention, but AHH! I seriously don’t know what to do with myself whenever I am paid a compliment.

Online, it’s easy. You reply a gracious “thank you” and don’t have to show how flushed and embarrassed you are. In person, I am so awkward it’s uncomfortable for all parties involved. Since I will be so busy running around the hotel in between meetings, and sitting in the back of the room running the A/V booth during meetings, I’m hoping people won’t get much of a chance to thoroughly mortify me. I know, I sound like a brat, and of course I appreciate any acknowledgement I get. I’m just way awkward. But I’ll get over it. And if I don’t, hopefully at least someone will get video of my epic meltdown.


There’s really no reason or explanation behind this photo other than the fact that I love Bowie so much and I feel like every post should have some sort of visual. This is a normal scene in my daily life: Bowie resting on my pillow as I surf the internets. I don’t know if it’s possible to love him any more than I already do. I wish you all could meet him so you would understand just what a wonderful best friend he is.

Puppy love aside… in my last FMM post, I touched upon my breakup with Weight Watchers.  That lasted nearly three weeks before I gave in and reactivated my account. The tipping point was when I got on the scale and was up for the third week in a row. The number on the scale still isn’t ruling my life, however the upward trend, coupled with my “intuitive eating” aka “questionable eating” needed to be addressed and nipped in the bud immediately. I reactivated my account (and ActiveLink) on Saturday and started fresh.

Starting this Saturday I may also drop in on a meeting to see if that will keep me accountable. Well, I know it will keep me accountable, but I’m terrible about keeping a set schedule so I don’t know how dedicated I’ll be about attending. It’s a bummer too because the WW center used to be just down the street from me, but now they’ve moved a couple miles away. In LA, a couple miles could mean a half hour drive depending on the time of day.

Today is Monday, which marks day 3 of eating perfectly, working out, and getting all my healthy guidelines in. What a difference a few days makes. I already feel more energy, more definition in my muscles, and that incessant bloated feeling is gone. Truth be told, all of this could have been accomplished with My Fitness Pal as well, but Weight Watchers just gives me that familiar, comfortable, butterflies and unicorns feeling. Like I said in April, if it ain’t broke